So, this is it— 2019! We made it to a new year y’all!
So what’s new? Anyone <insert shifty emoji eyes> no? Crickets..?
Yea, same here dude lmao!
I always start a new year feeling super optimistic, super excited and super motivated to get a head start on my goals — to give birth to this new and improved version of myself that I haven’t even fully conceptualized yet—however, usually about a month in I realize that simply because it is a new year doesn’t mean that my circumstances will magically change.
I had two very important goals on my list (I’ll reveal in a later post when appropriate) & neither of them has come to fruition to date… as I reflected on why this is…I realized that I am the barrier holding myself back from achieving my goals.
I’ve allowed fear of failure
fear of judgment
fear of damaging relationships to determine my next moves.
This behavior has been extremely counterproductive and has left me feeling unfulfilled, overlooked and a little resentful to be completely honest.
I realize now, that my next move needs to be my best move & just because some people view me as “young-ish” doesn’t absolve me from taking chances and shooting my shot when appropriate (even if it is a longggg shot haha)
The fact of the matter is, that no one truly knows how long we have in this life young or old— live your best life now or live to regret it later.
I don’t know about y’all, but I’m super excited to explore what “living your best life” means for me and I am not going to waste any more of my precious time waiting on the next man’s hand to feed me.
I am my own responsibility-
No one, but God will love me the way that I love me-
& I need to honor this life— in each and every beautiful moment I am fortunate enough to have.