“My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance, and in inverse proportion to my expectations.” -Michael J. Fox
So, I turned 26 …
And I’m nowhere near where I planned to be at this age (either in a corner office as Director of Communications or sitting as CEO of my own non-profit) however, I haven’t ruled out the fact that I simply just haven’t had enough time to put all the pieces together to get there.
I remember sitting in the back of mom’s van at 10 or 11 years old and saying (in my head, of course, lol), “I can’t wait until I turn 18 and I can be brave, independent and successful!” Though I’m confident that I’ve gotten the brave part down, been independent for quite some time and have experienced small successes along the way—I’ve still not transformed into that ‘Bria 2.0’ that I so long to be.
Don’t get me wrong— I’m super proud of who I am, how my maturity and self-efficacy have skyrocketed…(here comes the BUT Haha)…but, there are still so many things that I’d like to experience in my life.
This, I feel, is the plight of being human. We want & want & want— it’s not until we have things stripped from us that we realize how blessed and fortunate we are. Should this notion keep us from striving for more? That I’m not sure of.
I want to acknowledge how grateful I am that God has always coupled my loss with gain and my pain with joy. All things being equal, I’ve been quite fortunate in my life. And though I will probably always want more… I will always try my best to remain humble and grateful for my current state.
Bria 2.0— I hope you are who I have imagined all these years and I hope that the one thing you maintain from your past self (who we are now) is your heart. Never stop giving, believing, hoping and persevering. Your heart is what makes you who you are after everything else is stripped away.